Meet My Sister

My hands have been frozen on the computer keyboard while I took in the pure profundity of this moment in my personal life and family life and, Lord, have mercy, my spiritual life. When I say that I am about to share something gigantic to me, I am not kidding. I am bug-eyed that this is really happening and it is everything I can do not to type these words to you from face down on the floor. My dear Siestas, it is my great honor to introduce you to my blood sister, with whom I was raised and with whom I shared a room for many years and many secrets. Some crippling. We have known much pain together and much devastation apart and were so close growing up that one of us could hardly be okay if the other were not. Today – and for this moment – we are both okay. And blessed. Redeemed. Forgiven. And, in staggering ways, restored. Only because of Jesus.

Years ago in a speaker/teacher workshop, the consummate Christian communicator, Florence Littauer, taught us to ask ourselves two questions before standing in front of an audience: “Do I have anything to say?” And, “Do people need to hear it?” I can confidently say today that, if Florence Littauer knew my sister and her story, she’d tell her to open her mouth and rarely shut it till God took her Home. Oh, Sisters, does she ever have something to say and do people ever need to hear it!

Please meet my older sister by three years, Gay Tuttle. She and I are two of five siblings who we love as much as we love each other. I do not know anyone well who has a more powerful and genuine testimony than Gay. Her rescue and revival flooded over into mine. God used her healing to add to mine. It is with the hope that God could use it to somehow impact you that I make this introduction.  My heart is pounding with awe and reverence as we release her story – and at times our story – to the public. In her words. I have not edited a single sentence. Here you will find the first of several installments of this story of redemption that, God willing, we hope to share with you over the weeks to come. I don’t want to put her into a time crunch but you could reasonably expect them about 1 to 2 weeks apart. Pray for her as she writes to you. Sometimes we have to relive to RE-LIVE.

As I put her out here for the eyes of multiple thousands, I beg you from the deepest part of my heart to take good care of my sister. This is huge for her and huge for me. Allow her the freedom to talk in the language that she presently speaks and with the terms she presently uses. I believe you will be so blessed. Very few of you Siestas need me to say this but, because I do not want to throw her to even two wolves, I ask you to please refrain from preaching to her. Instead, receive from her. Just let her share with you a vivid flesh-and-blood illustration of the gospel of Jesus Christ, the Son of God. These won’t be articles for legalists. These will be articles for people who do believe or who want to believe with all their hearts that “it is for freedom that Christ has set us free.” (Galatians 5:1)  If I didn’t believe you were the kind of people to embrace her with lavish affection, I’d never take this chance. But I know you, Siestas. I know she will be well cared-for here. By the way, she knows you a bit, too. She’s been reading the blog and many of your comments now for a year. So, without further introduction, my beloved Siestas, please meet my beloved Sister, Gay. I am now full-on crying.


Hi Siestas!  My name is Gay and I’m an alcoholic.  I’m not just any alcoholic.  I am a serious, hardcore, dedicated, classic, textbook alcoholic.  I drank just like that for thirty-seven years, all of my adult life, with the exception of the last two and three-quarter years.  Today I have 1000 days of sobriety, nights included, weekends too, consecutive, all in a row, no breaks, no slips and no sneaks.  Now, that might not sound like much of an accomplishment to those who have stayed sober all of their lives or for those who drink responsibly, but for ME, it is a flatout miracle from God!!

To be honest, Sweet Siestas, I have grappled with how to introduce myself on this most-esteemed blog until I almost didn’t come out here at all.  Because I have been “raised up” in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous and in our beloved Mercy Street, a church that ministers to many in recovery, the word “alcoholic” just rolls off my tongue.  I don’t even think about it.  It feels right, it sounds right, IT IS RIGHT!!  It is a huge part of who I am and I own that.  My God-given, God-planned deliverance from it is my testimony and I believe with all my heart that there are those of you who have, at the very least, people in your lives who have struggled or are strugging with some similar experiences and need some hope.  That’s about as simple as it gets.  I am quick to blurt it out for another reason as well, possibly the most important one:  I do not want to forget.  I believe that in order to LIVE what I have been delivered to I must REMEMBER what I have been delivered from.

What it was like:

I started drinking at seventeen years old as a rebellious teenager (loved it), continued to do it through the “functioning” years (tolerated it) and moved on to radical self-medicating simply to kill the pain, much of which I caused myself (hated it).  I was given countless opportunities to recover and refused.  By the time I got serious and very scared, it was too late.  I was hopelessly addicted to alcohol, both mentally and physically, and I had lost the power of choice.  So I threw in the towel and proceeded to try to drink myself out of my misery and miserable existence, to death.  And I almost did, many times, but for the radical grace of God.  I lost my husband, my children, my job, the trust of my family, my home, my car, my driving privileges, my self-respect, my dignity, my values, my freedom and the list goes on and on.  I was confined to jails and institutions more times than I can count.  I thought I was a certifiable lunatic because WHO would drink after all that???  And that wasn’t the bottom for me; I ended up homeless and on the street (yes, outside!) for approximately eighteen months.

What happened:

God intersected into my life like a burning bolt of lightning and in the blink of an eye my story took an abrupt about-face and became His Story.

What it is like now:

A thousand days of sobriety and a God bigger than life Who requires a lot of WORK from me, have molded and chiseled me into far more than an alcoholic.  I am a loving and responsible mother, sister and friend.  I am a dedicated employee and member of Mercy Street who believes in its mission and lives it OUT LOUD.  I am a driver with a valid Texas drivers license and insurance, a car owner, townhouse dweller, volunteer, law-abiding citizen, taxpayer (ugh), sponsor, sponsee and recovery coach.  I sit on three committees that are a part of the Houston Area Recovery Initiative for the fourth largest city in the country.  I am a Servant and Lover of God who is fully dedicated to following His will for my life which is to share my experiences, both there and back, and offer hope of God’s deliverance for all who suffer from a similar seemingly hopeless state of mind and body.

I hope to offer a unique perspective, possibly even tilting the axis a bit (in a good way), of an intimate relationship with this most Mysterious Jesus God who never leaves us or forsakes us no matter how far down the scale we have gone.  I love Him because He loves me, all of me.  He first loved me!  I had been taught that as a child and had sung Jesus Loves Me since I could form words.  Yet I had forgotten that while I was out there in the wilderness, pounding the hot concrete with bare feet.  I didn’t know the love, grace and mercy of God until I walked off of that concrete and began the journey out of the pit, to hope and a future, to FREEDOM.

“The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,”  Isaiah 61:1-3

I am going to tell you my story, Sweet Siestas, if you care or dare to listen.  I promise I will be honest and candid, direct and to the point.  I will try my best not to ramble on about the problem without moving quickly to the solution.  For me, not just any alcoholic, there is but One Solution.  Not just any God.  It takes a God the size of the universe, bigger and badder than them all, to accomplish for us and through us what we cannot do for ourselves.  It takes the all powerful, all consuming, all merciful Crazy Love of Jesus and our full acceptance of who we are in and to Him.  It takes a willingness to do WHAT HE ASKS, which is A LOT.  It takes honesty and authenticity.  This is Who I Am and it only matters what God thinks because of Who He Is.  Then its Katie bar the door!  Here am I, send me, all of me, scars, limps and all.  And He will and He does because He loves us with a love that transcends all barriers and which is, well … indescribable.  Brennan Manning, my second favorite author, wrote these words in The Furious Longing of God:  “Employing adjectives such as furious, passionate, vehement, and aching to describe the longing of God are my mumbling and fumbling to express the Inexpressible.  Yet, I plod on.” Please bear with me, my Siestas, while I mumble and fumble to express the Inexpressible.


Dear Jesus God, You know that the absolute best prayer I ever prayed in my life was the simplest of all prayers:  God, Please Help Me!  I’m praying it again now, Dear Jesus.  Please help me to be effective in Your world and for Your glory and honor alone.  Please help me to shine the light of Jesus in the darkest night, to the wounded and broken who need a shred of hope because everyone needs some, Lord.  I love you with all my heart and soul.  I am Yours, all of me.  Amen.


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  1. 1251
    Amy C. says:

    YOU = Warrior with Lipgloss!!! HE>i John 3:30

    Welcome home, sweet Siesta in Christ.
    ~Amy in Hawaii

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      Amy C. says:

      I didn’t think my other comment posted. Sorry for the repeat. I guess I REALLY meant what I said… 😉

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    Vicki says:

    God’s grace is AMAZING!!! Thanks for sharing!

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    Jim Jackson says:

    It has been my privilege and honor to know Gay. She is a radiant believer and a remarkable human being. Thanks, Beth, for giving her an opportunity to tell her story.

    Also a friend of Bill W’s.

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    Jane says:

    Gay, thank you so much for being strong and courageous and so transparent. Thanks for giving God all the glory for the great things He has done and for doing it “out loud”. 🙂 I’m grateful like you for a big God and eagerly await more of your testimony of His love,grace & abundant mercy. Lord Jesus we give You great thanks for answering our cries for help.
    The Lord continue to bless you sweet Siesta,

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    Maria Gallegos says:

    Gay, it is an honor to meet you and I am so glad that you’ve shared your testimony with us. I thank God for you and for Beth (who has been instrumental in taking me to a higher level with God) and for your entire family. I am very grateful. It is by His blood and our testimony that the giants in our lives are defeated and you have done just that. If we can’t be honest with God and if we can’t live our lives outloud so that as sisters in Christ can pray for one another then we live in fear. I thank you and applaud the number of days (which are many) you have been sober because I understand that fighting the good fight is a day to day fight! We can’t go back and pick up where we left yesterday nor can we see or fight tomorrow today. I know that God has called me as a Prayer Warrior(as my primary calling and amongst other callings) taking me out of the very center of the enemies camp fighting, kicking and screaming but He changed me, Praise God! Today I fight the good fight, strong in battle and strong in Prayer, a general in the ranks of the Lord. I am honored to call you my sister and to help fight the good fight with you. I believe and know that God has put you in our lives on purpose and He will and has used you and Beth to touch, to encourage as well as re-ignite the passion and purpose to continue plowing through and taking back what is ours. May God bless you continually with the overflow of His love that it continues to touch and reach others as they need it.
    With the Agape love of God,
    Your Sister in Christ Jesus,

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    Connie says:

    Praise to the Almighty God Who saves, keeps, and restores!!! Bless you, my sister. I will be blessed in reading your journey, I’m sure.

    Prayers for you,

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    Deborah says:

    I am eager to continue reading your testimony. My hope is that through reading about your struggles and eventual redemption, I will find hope that my daughter is not lost to me. I am forwarding the website and blog to her and pray that she opens her heart and follows your story, that she too is not lost to God.

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    Melissa says:

    It is a blessing to hear His story for your life in your own moving words. Keep sharing, sweet woman of God. And congratulations on those 1000 days and many more to come!

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    Cathy says:

    Yay, God! Yay, Gay! Am forwarding to a friend who needs to hear your story. You are waving a beautiful banner of HOPE. xoxo

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    Joy says:

    Dear sweet sister in Christ! As I read your post, the song that kept going in my mind was the old one – PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!!!
    What a story of redemption and grace!! Live it dear one – experience it – share it!! May God continue to bless you and all that you encounter and share with!
    love from Canada!

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    Tammy says:

    Thank you SO much for sharing. We love you and are eager to hear more of your story…We all have a story and praise God you are using it for his glory. We all have to be honest with ourselves and God to let him do his work!!!! Keep coming back…

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    Vickie says:

    Thank you for sharing . As I read this post the tears rolled down my cheeks and my heart was beating out of my chest. I can’t tell you how much this post has given me hope. My heart breaks for my sister who is an alcoholic. I love and pray for my sister every day. I so want her to have the life God intends for her to have and be free. Gay what you wrote my sister could of written the very same words. I will continue to pray and believe that God is who He says He is, and can do what He says He can do. I’m believing God!! Thank you for having the courage to share with such honesty and transparency. I look forward to hearing more of His story and yours. Would you be willing to say a prayer for Lisa right now? Thank you.

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    Melanie Johnson says:

    Sweet Gay,
    I am praying for you and your continued walk with Jesus. Thank you for your honesty and willingness to share with others. You are exactly where God wants you and needs you.
    The LORD bless you and keep you,

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    Melonie, Denver says:

    Thank you Gay for your courage in sharing your story and God’s story in and through you! I believe He is,has and will use His beloved daughter in ways you cannot imagine! What a faithful God we serve! I was encouraged and blessed by your words. My prayers are with you sister!

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    Elaine says:

    Dear Gay,
    Wow! I was just in Houston for work meeting and saw some of the Siesta gals at the airport. Tonite, I decided to check in the blog that I haven’t read for months to read about the siesta meeting. Instead, I was blown away with your post. I have struggled with alcohol for years and years. Finally quit drinking 3 years ago, I thought for good. This past weekend, I gave in to the tempter and drank again. I thought maybe I hid it from God (and myself)…I can quickly see a scene playing out of going back down that road and missing out on the awesome plans God has for me by choosing a temporary buzz over Him. I’m so sorry for the pain and trials you’ve experienced, but I see your life as a chapter in the bible, and we’re just getting to the good part..I can’t wait to read more! Thank you for being real…your testimony is a already saving this mom from going backwards and I will not forget either – what He has saved me from and the plans He has for me! Thank you!!

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    Annette says:

    Thanks for your contribution to the blog and your true honest heart. Doing the James study with ladies at church and wanted to offer up to Gay and Beth the song, BEND by Brandon Heath. It is part of The Story project which is absolutely amazing. Just have thought the words in this song, reminded me of you both. Enjoy…if you haven’t already. I’m in absolute ravishing LOVE with the entire CD. WHEN LOVE SEES YOU, by Mac Powell is my personal favorite. They are all such beautiful pictures and representations of these ordinary but grand characters from God’s Word

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    Darnell Williams says:

    Welcome, Gay, and thank you for sharing! I’m a sister in Christ and a member of Alcoholics Anonymous too!! I have almost 7 straight months of sobriety (approx. 203 days). I’m so thankful that we serve a mighty, loving God who can reach us wherever we are. There are so many in the rooms of AA that need to know Jesus…my prayer is that we both continue to be a light for Him! Praising the Lord for you today, my friend 🙂

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    Charlotte Gott says:

    Bless you, my sista. What a story you have to tell and we have ears to hear you.

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    Mamalion says:

    What a beautiful testimony. I absolutely agree with remembering where we came from, so we never forget how far we’ve come. I tell my kids, who have grown up in a Christian home, that it’s almost harder for them since they don’t have anything to look back on and visibly see what God has saved us from.

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    Oh Gay,
    Praying for you each day as you experience freedom in Jesus!

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    Tracy says:

    I am humbled by your courage and transparency. Thank you so much for your willingness to share your story of freedom with us. You are loved and embraced here, sweet sister/fellow siesta!

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    Jhann says:

    how brave you are sweet sister. I pray for your strength and look so forward to reading about your incredible story. God Bless.

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    Traci says:


    I have been wanting to hear your story since Beth read us a letter you wrote a few years ago at the Louisville LPL. I just knew you had some important things to say!

    What I really want to know is just HOW “God intersected into my life like a burning bolt of lightening.” How does one get that?

    My newest, favorite verse is 1 Thess 5:17 (pray without ceasing). It is almost nonstop that I pray, “Please Help Me.” I guess I just want to know how to cross from that prayer to the burning bolt of lightening.

    You should write a book.

    Thank you so much for sharing. You are loved here.


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      Gay says:

      Traci — You made my day with this. I am laughing so hard and God DID make laughter the best medicine!

      “I guess I just want to know how to cross from that prayer to the burning bolt of lightening.”

      I am going to write, the best I CAN and that will most definitely be mumbling and fumbling, about the night I walked off the street. It wasn’t a tangible burning bolt of lightning but it was so real IN MY MIND and IN MY HEART and there was no doubt in my mind in that moment, NO DOUBT, that God was responsible for it and all the circumstances that led up to it. I’ll get it down or HE WILL, ok HE WILL. I know this, I will never be the same … and who would want to be anyway?

      Love your comment. Love you. Thanks!

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    Flo Smyth says:

    I finally found some time today to get a glimpse of what has been going on with”the sweetest blog I know” & I’m sitting here sobbing so hard over Gay & Beth’s story. I also have a sister that is three yrs older than me & we also grew up sharing a bedroom & many secrets. Gay your story mimic’s my sister’s life almost word for word. But sadly my sister’s story does not have a happy ending. On
    Nov 11-2009 (a beautiful Sunday afternoon) she was found dead in a not so desirable side of town, alone w/a bottle in hand. She left behind 4 young adult children ,1 child 7yrs old & 5 grandchildren. Our family does not talk about her death much, bc it is hard to face ! Sadly I’m watching her children grieving for a mother that they have made up in their heads in order not to admit to the mother that broke their hearts bc she was an alcoholic.
    Thank you for allowing Our Precious Heavenly Father to do a work in you & for your courage in sharing your story. I’m so thrilled for you & your family & for your new journey that Jesus has given you,”WOW what a ride it is going to be !
    Flo Smyth

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    Carrie Ann says:

    Ms. Gay ~

    As I read your story my heart is both broken and rejoicing. Because of you sister Beth’s obedience to the Lord by writing “Breaking Free” I can say that I am free. I have so much that I am ashamed of and do not have alcohol to blame it on. I just fell into a pit years ago fully sober! I will be praying for you as you share your story. When my husband of 23 years and I completed Ms. Beth’s “Breaking Free” Bible study together in the prvacy of our own home with DVD’s and workbooks, we bagan to see that God forgave us for divircing after 7 years of marriage and getting re-married a year later. We call March 16, 1996 our Miracle Day. That is the day we flew to Las Vegas and remarried to restore our family. Our identical twin girls were 5 at the time and we have never been happier. We have just discussed that time in our lives this past December (2011) as we completed “Breaking Free”. It was the proverbial elephant we had been tip-toeing around for 15 years. Now we share it so that Satan can no longer hold us in our shame because when we feel led to share the “m” in shame changes to an “r” in share and it feels so good to have that yoke of bondage off of us! You keep going as God as asks you to and I will be praying for you.
    Your Sister in Christ

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    Cameron says:

    Gay, thank you for sharing your story. I feel your pain and appreciate your story. I look forward to getting to know you more. I am so thankful that our GOD has intervened in your life and mine. May God bless your journey until we meet Him one day.

    And to Beth: Thanks for sharing Gay with us!

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    Kim says:


    I am looking forward to future posts from you. As the adult child, sister and mother of alcoholics I am looking for hope. My daughter is currently in her second stint of rehab. I will share this with her when she gets out. May God use you and your testimony in a mighty way. Congratulations on your victory over this very dark and powerful addiction.
    Love in the strong name of Jesus,

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    Amanda Cable says:

    Dear Gay,
    Thank you for sharing your heart here. I am weeping at the reminder of who our amazing God is and how much He desires all men to be saved. It has been my privalege to pray for you for many years. I do not know you, but Beth has mentioned her family many times, so I have prayed. Your story, and victory, are such a sweet promise to me about my prodigal son. “To God be the glory, great things He has done”, and will continue to do. 🙂 God bless you, dear sister in Christ. Hugs, Amanda

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    Melissa Messer says:

    Your story is a beautiful one of God’s wonderful Grace & Mercy. Thank you for your honesty and your willingness to share. You have touched many lives.

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    Lara Bills says:

    Thank you for your honesty. I have tears pouring down my face and am so thankful for authenticity. Thanks be to our amazing Lord for deliverence. Bless you and thank you for sharing your story.


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    Wendy b says:

    Congratulations Gay!!!! Your story brings tears to myeyes. My own dear sweet sister has struggled with some deep addictions, and I am happy to have her back! I cant tell you what it means to hear your testimony, and I eagerly await the rest of your story. Welcome sweet sister, the journey is bitter sweet but so worth it. I am so happy for you!!!

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    Deborah says:

    HI Gay!
    I not only had the awesome privilege of being in Houston as a “SIESTA” with your sweet sister this past weekend but a very unexpected privileged of meeting YOU and hugging your sweet neck at Bayou city fellowship church! Can I just say “WOW”!!! I could feel your JOY of GOD’S LOVE and FAITHFULNESS. Your testimony is POWERFUL and gives so much HOPE back to a broken world that we live in. Thank YOU for sharing your story and for your COURAGE to do so.Thank you for being So Real… It gives me SO much hope back for my brother who is an alcoholic!
    Thank you Father, for Beth and for this wonderful save haven that siestas can come to and share our stories with each other of your redemption and unconditional LOVE for us. Thank you for my sweet sister Gay and for her courage to tell her powerful story of your redemption. May she continue to follow your will for her life..ONLY for your honor and Glory…For we know that ALL things work together according to your good and perfect will….AMEN!…… I LOVE YOU GAY! I cant wait to hear back from you!:)….

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    Syneva says:

    Thank you! You’re honesty and candidness about where you have been and where God is taking you are precious. I look forward to reading more about your journey with the One True God who has chosen you to share your story. Thank you from one who has struggled to fully grasp His love and forgiveness.

    In Christ,

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    Kathi says:


    Thank you so much for sharing what God has laid on your heart. I have a sister who is struggling just as you did, although I know your stories will vary. I know the best and only thing I can do for her is to pray for her and love her regardless. Your story is an encouragement to me. I hope one day she too can proclaim the greatness of God. I look forward to what you will share and I will pray a hedge of protection around you as you do so.


    (a sister longing for her best friend back)

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    Elaine says:

    God bless you, dear Gay, for opening yourself and your story to us so transparently. I am so thankful for your 1000 days of sobriety. That is remarkable! You go girl! We’re all rooting for you and praying for you.

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    Lichelle says:


    God’s Amazing Grace is so big no matter how much we do to ourselves, he loves us anyway!


    Thanks for sharing your story and I can’t wait to read more as you share it!
    You are loved here!

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    Kelli says:

    I am truly touched by your words…Thank you

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    DJ says:

    Gay, Great grace has been given to you. HE has amazingly pursued you, delivered you and will redeem your past. Regret is in the rear-view mirror, let the lover of your soul keep driving sista till you see it no more!Proud of you….;)

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    Rhonda says:

    thank you so much for sharing this. I have spent 51 years of my life hiding from the fact that I come from a disfunctional family. thinking everyone’s family is so normal and I am not worthy. But I have finally realized that I am not the only one who has problems. My brother is much like Gay. Except for one thing. He still doesn’t get it. He is still blaming everyone and living off whoever will let him. It is so great to know that I am not alone and other people are out there who have issues with family members.
    Gay – thank you for being so honest and owning up to your responsibility. You are so special.

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    Jennifer says:

    Gay, thank you so much for sharing. I think you are so brave! My dad is a long time alcoholic and your story gives me hope that a miracle can still happen in his life. With God, NOTHING is impossible. Sometimes I don’t live like I believe that but your life is a living testimony to the fact that God can do miraculous work in anyone no matter how far they’ve strayed! God bless you and thanks again for opening up your life for us.

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    How can we thank you enough for speaking a WORD over all of us. Your testimony ministered to me so greatly for my own life. It also encouraged me to not stop fighting for and praying for my family. We are so blessed by your transparency and willingness to share with all of us. All of our love to you…

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    Rachel says:

    Hi Gay,

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with us Siestas!! I am so honored that I had the privilege of meeting you and giving you a big hug this weekend at BCF. What a blessing to meet you!!! I am so inspired by you and your courage! Look forward to hearing more from you on here 🙂 Praying blessings upon you! Love you, sister!

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    Joy Stamp says:

    Dear Gay,

    Our God is so Awesome and Able and patient with us. You have been blessed with a loving, praying, believing sister. As I read your amazing story I kept thinking of Romans 8:28. I am so grateful for your deliverance and look forward to more of your journey.

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    Stephanie says:

    This story brings me to tears as well, because it brings me hope. My dad has been a hard-core alcoholic since before I was born. I am now a mother of three and their “Pa” is still a hard-core alcoholic. I love the verse in 1 Corinthians 6 that lists all the wickedness that will not inherit the kingdom of God including drunkards, but then goes on to say in verse 11 “And that is what some of you WERE. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.” Sometimes I feel hopeless about my dad, but then the Lord uses stories like yours to remind me that he has the power to TOTALLY change lives. Thank you for sharing.

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    Joni says:

    Dear Gay,
    I await eagerly the next installment. My daughter texted me to read your story, which in many respects is mine.

    I did not “ride my elevator” to the basement, but I was on the first floor and suicidal(what alcoholic isn’t, truly?). When I heard the statement that “God pursues me for a love relationship that is real & personal”, the chains began to loose, and through loving Christian sisters and the rooms of AA, God began to set me free. Twelve years, eight months, and 26 1/2 days later, He continues to keep me.

    Thank you for your courage and transparency. You will do more for the Kingdom than you will ever know. Soldier on, dear warrior.

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    Delaine Morrison says:

    I am so glad I found this blog. I love the Beth Moore studies!! I love Gay’s blog!! To have that much courage is nothing but the Lord. I will pray for you Gay, that God can use you and keep you safe.

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    Debbie says:

    Gay, Thank You for your story and your life. Thank you for having the courage to tell us…you are loved here…It is beautiful and encouraging, I am so encouraged by you…Thank God, for all of us, that “the lost get found! ” Looking foreward to hearing how God has and is working in your life…”) Debbie

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    Erin Mulkey says:

    WOW!!! To God be the Glory!!! THANK YOU, Beth, for loving your sister like Christ, through her most difficult time. THANK YOU, Gay, for sharing from the depths of your soul. I have a story similar story only my tragic flaw was in my marriage. I, too, have recently allowed God to do through me what he allowed me to go through this wilderness to do….pour myself out for the sake of others. It IS scary. It IS hard. BUT God IS faithful and will honor your faithfulness. 🙂

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    Ann Bailey says:

    Thank you for your open and frank testimony! I’m the daughter of an alcoholic father who wandered the streets as a homeless drunk and died as a result of violence among the homeless. He never knew the resounding Grace of our Mighty God. No one but God could have protected you during your tenure as a homeless person, and no one else could have brought you to where you are today! Continued Blessings, Ann

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    Rebecca says:

    Dear Gay, thank you so very much for your testimony! I wait with baited breathe to read the rest of your story. I love you already!

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