Hey Siestas! Is there anything you want to say to your mom today? Or anything you wish you could say? She may already be Home with the Lord like mine is but sometimes writing out what is on your heart, even if the person never reads it, can be healing. On the other hand, she may be very much alive but face-to-face is just too awkward to say what you wish you could say. The blog is yours today for “Dear Mom” letters. Just keep them to one reasonable size paragraph . It may take a few hours for you to be able to see your comment so don’t be alarmed. I’ll be at church then at lunch today but I’ll be very attentive when I’m home. I love you guys. Happy Mother’s Day to you Moms!
PS. It’s been several hours since this post went up and you guys have me just about bawling my head off. Some so sweet and some so painful. The Mother-Daughter thing can be very complicated. I’m like many of you. I could write a letter that goes something like, “Dear Mom, I love you and miss you so much. You were my best friend and favorite person for such a long time. So hilarious. Such a great story teller. Honestly, the world’s best grandmother. I wanted your favor more than anybody else’s on this earth. I would have done almost anything to get it and keep it. I wish so much things would have been different those last couple of years but we will make up for lost time when I see you. What a day of rejoicing that will be! No more sorrow. No more fear. I love you forever, Beth.”
Dear Mom,
Your selfless devotion to me as you raised me by yourself, working very hard to provide for us and creating a home with wonderful memories – words cannot thank you enough for your investment in me as a child, and then to my husband, daughters, and now grandchildren. You have taught me by your actions and your life instead of your words. Thank you for showing me the Lord and for being a praying grandmother. I only hope I can be as faithful for my grandchildren. I love you, mom.
Dear Mom,
I’m calling you that because you always hated being called, “Ma”. I can’t believe it’s already three months since you passed. I’ve read some of the writings you’ve left behind and I’m sorry I wasn’t past my own pain enough to get to know you better. I want you to know that I know now that you loved me in your own way. I hope that I was enough of an example that I’ll see you in Heaven someday.
I do love you, too.
Your youngest daughter,
Sheila
Dear Mom,
I’ve already briefly blogged about you today but I left out so many things about you. The most important was your great faith in our Lord. I know it took me a long time to arrive where you had been since the age of 12 but I have arrived! I am most thankful to the Lord that He allowed me to see you as a person and not just a parent. Thank you so much for your laughter and your selflessness. My prayer is to be more like you, especially in those areas. I’m pretty happy here on earth but I’m really looking forward to being with you again. I love you and I miss you so much.
This is to each woman who ever took the time to pray for me or encourage me or let me know in words or action, in even the smallest ways, that she thought I was special or worth the notice and attention. It meant the world to me as a little girl, and as a young women. It still does, even now that I’ve entered my 40s. Pointing me toward and encouraging me to follow hard after Christ — what greater gift could you have given me? I so desparately needed it, and I am eternally grateful. (This includes you, dear sweet Beth, my beloved Bible Lady.)May God bless you a hundredfold and more for your kindnesses, for sowing Truth into my life, for being a part of the healing of my heart, and for leading me on a path that has and will impact my children for Christ, and, if the Lord wills, their children after… All my love.
Linda in MN
Dear Mom,
My last happy memory of you is when I was 4 years old. We were in the kitchen and I was eating breakfast as you read the paper. You had on a pretty yellow dress and the sunlight was streaming in the windows. All was right. I know, that I know, that I know that you rest now with Jesus and wait for me. We will sit just like we did in the kitchen, and all will be right. I’ll introduce you to Beth one day. She used the story of your life and my healing to minister to 6,600 at a conference. Women learned they are not alone from our pain. God turned all to good. I know you are at peace now and please know that I am too. I love you Mom!
Today I spent what will probably be my last Mother’s Day with my mom. She has metastasized breast cancer. This afternoon, as a gift, she gave me my grandmother’s pearls–the string I wore on my wedding day 14 years ago. With it she wrote a note that said, “To the best of all daughters, who is now the best of all mothers.” I felt like I got my crown of glory here on Earth. If I am a fraction of the mom she has been to me, I will be more than successful. She is my dearest friend and such a treasure. I love her so.
Dear Mom,
I am sorry I was a disappointment to you. I know better than you do all the mistakes I made growing up. I have big news though – I am grown up now! I am married and I am a mom too. I am not that same embarassing, disappointing, shame-filled younger woman anymore. And if you were ever able to get to know me, you might find you can actually like the woman I have become. I wish you would change your mind about me. Mother’s Day makes me sad because I know you don’t care if I celebrate you or not. But I do. Because for better or worse, I am who I am because you are who you are. And Mama, you would like me now. I just know you would. Happy Mother’s Day. I love you.
Dear Mama
You instantly loved everyone you met and talked with them too—waiters, doctors, clerks, anyone who would listen. You were a beautiful woman raised in a deaf world with many hardships. You so loved my brother—your son, your son, who was so mentally ill. How I wish I had found compassion rather than irritation. I’m so sorry. But, I’ve found God, Mama. I’ve found Rest as I face what took your life—breast cancer. My surgery is this Thursday and I hope I’m as brave as you were on the day of your surgery. When you awoke, you heard us say, “daddy just passed away this morning.” Your husband of 50 plus years. You were just incredible, but more than all that, Oh! I hope you’ve found Rest in your soul!
Love,
Bev
Dear Mom,
The older i get the more I appreciate you. The more i realise the heartache my actions have caused you. This mothers day I want to say I’m sorry for the times my behavior was less than par. I’m sorry that you and I became enemies during my teenage years and I hope someday our relationship will be truly restored. and that someday you will be proud of the person I have become.
While we were enemies a wonderful mentor stepped into my life and while you may blame her and while you may be jealous of her, she constatnly and continually told me that you loved me, that i couldn’t see it but that one day I would.
That day has come, I can see that you have loved me all along. I pray everyday that God would restore our broken relationship.
I will always love you mom,forever.
Dear Mom,
I love you even when the drive and hard work eithic you instilled in me clashes with the same drive you possess to the power of 10. I both want to be able to work as hard as you, and slow down like you never could. I love that every conversation you have takes place at the PhD level you worked so hard to earn, and I love how hard you work to not let that interfere with your grandbabies. I even love you for having written and pioneered the family life curriculum, and for having tested the content on my Grade 8 class.
Dear Mother in Law,
I love you to the same extent that you love me, that is to the moon and back without and ounce withheld. I love that you have never gone to school past high school, and founded, operated and sold multiple businesses that have employed dozens of people all while being an astounding mom to your boys, one of whom I married – and then you welcomed me so thoroughly. I am in awe of your ability to love without stinting, even at the end of the day.
Thank-you Mom(s) for so very, very much.
I call you Mom because that is what I grew up with, I dont feel you are my Mom and havent for many many years so I struggle to write Dear MOM. We havent spoken in at least 8 years. My children do not know you or of you. They dont ask, they dont know too. I really miss not having a Mom, some days more than others. I am thankful that your sister, my Aunt who stepped in to fill that void, but its really not the same, although I love her. I dont have a Mom. I am trying to break the mold this family has made for my own children’s sake. I never want my daughter to write a letter like this. Whats different you ask? God. No He’s not different, I am different- I found God again and I am holding on with a death grip to Him and learning each day what it really means to be loved! Unconditionally, no matter who I married and divorced, no matter what I think- He loves me where you failed to, He protects me where you failed to, He will never leave me because I married someone who doesnt look like us! I want you to know I am getting baptized AGAIN because I feel my life was horrid after I was baptized as a child and I blamed Him, but He still loves me, and I want to rededicate my life to HIM,who loves me no matter what and I love HIM completely!
Dear Mom,
I know you love me — you always have. And I love you so much! I had a hard time picking between all the Mother’s Day cards this year, so I picked two to say just some of what you mean to me. You are such a blessing in my life! I’m thankful for the times we can have together, as few as they are. I’m so glad we took that cruise last year! I’m glad that you and I have begun having deeper conversations and sharing prayer requests — that is such a gift. I wish I could help you more as your physical issues make getting around more difficult. You have modeled perseverance and other-focus — that has been your heart forever, just like your mom demonstrated, too! I am proud to say you’re my mom. I love you!
No matter what happens in my life there is always one person missing.
Dear Momma,
Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for being a Christian woman and having the patience of a saint as I went though my teen years. Thank you for sewing me beautiful dresses to wear to church. Thank you for supporting your preacher husband for more than 50 years. I miss you so much, my Momma, my best friend. I rejoice knowing that one day we will share a loving embrace when we meet again. I thank you for telling me you loved me even though the ravages of Alzheimer’s had, for the most part, taken your mind. Thank you for being the best Granny to my boys and making sure they never left your house hungry. I’m so thankful I had you in my life and I’m so grateful that my boys got to know their Granny. I love you so much. God is so good!
Tishira Jan
Dear Mother:
Your entire 62 years of life were very hard. You were physically, emotionally, mentally and verbally abused your whole life even on your death bed.
You were always a mother and not a mom. In your heat you tried but you were not allowed.
When we sorted your personal belongings there were only your clothes and few. You were never allowed to have anything, talk to anyone or have any friends.
When God called you home two years ago this summer your pain from the Cancer that ravaged your body ended and so did the abuse.
Do you know that exactly one month later to the date he was called as well. But he is not in Heaven with you; he is the flames for his eternity.
I am sorry that you were a mother and not a mom. I am sorry that you felt we were unable to help you. I am sorry that your life was not a life.
Rest in your Heavenly Father’s arms
I feel like my mother tonite. she was an alcoholic who spent days in bed. i’m not a practicing alcoholic but if i had a bottle right now, i’d drink it. i can understand how the helplessness and isolation got to her. it seeks my soul. if i could tell my mother anything right now, it would be, “come get me.”
Dear Mama Siesta Beth,
I thought it appropriate to tell you that although I have a mom, I consider you to be my spritual mother, or Mother-in-Christ, if you will. We have never met, however your ministery has been a part of my daily life for years. This past year has been tough for me mentally and emotionally. However because of this particular trial, and several of your suggestions (last summer’s the stop being a brat blog post, Streams in the Desert, and the dear to my heart Jesus the One and Only Bible study-girl I could tell you some stories of how the Lord transformed me through THAT study-OH PRAISE HIS NAME!), I have grown so much in my relationship with the Lord. Thank you for your love, encouragement and obedience over the years. As a result of these things and your hard works, I am but a tiny sprig of fruit, budding forth, who is learning to trust Him with everything…and I do mean everything. Thank you Mama Siesta Beth for your willingness and your obedience. I has meant so much to me!
Happy Mother’s Day!!!!!!!
Wendy
Dear Mama,
I’m so proud to be your daughter. Thank you for all the sacrifices you made for me. I still remember the nights I would lay in bed and hear you praying. I’m so thankful God made me your daughter. I’m sorry for the rough times I put you through. Most of all thank you for teaching me about Jesus and modeling the life of a christian woman. God Bless you Mamma! Happy Mother’s Day!
Dear Mom,
The older I get the more love and respect I have for you. Your life has not always been easy. However, you have chosen to be strong in the Lord, to move past all the pain, to move on to the next season. Time after time. You have taught me so much. I have never known anyone with such strength as you. I cherish every day I have with you. I love you so. Happy Mothers Day!!!
Beth, you are like my spiritual mom and God has taught me so much through your teaching. Happy Mothers Day to you too!!!
Bethany
Dear Mom:
The older I get, the more I miss you and wish that I could have gotten to know the woman behind the name “Mom”. You’ve been gone so many years now that I’ve lost track. I love you and can’t wait for our reunion in Heaven so we can catch up. I’ve always hoped you would be proud of me; I am so honored to be your daughter.
Mama Beth..I’ve already posted but I can’t stop reading the letters. I’m doing the ugly cry all over my keyboard. Please tell us how the Lord inspired this idea today. This posting has made the day. Glory to God who heals us.
Wow! I am reading and reading and just bawling. If my hubby was in the room he would think I have totally lost it!
I love my mom. She is my best friend. And after reading I am even more thankful and grateful for her in my life.
Thanks for being a great mom and grandmom!
My Dear Mom,
It has been almost 17 years now that you have been gone…and I still cry at times, because I miss you so. I know we will see each other again and I will hold you so close…The older I get, the more I appreciate all you did for us kiddies. I love you and miss you and you are ALWAYS in my heart. Your firstborn,
Dear Mom,
I miss you dearly but can’t wait for our reunion day. To see you again, healthy and radiant, emanating the joy that was a staple of your countenance. I imagine our group hug with Jesus will be one awfully joyful embrace…
I am who I am because of your life but also, because of your victory in suffering. You are the greatest example any woman could ask for of a life characterized by daily rejoicing in our beautiful Lord…even in the valley of the shadow of death. I image He brought you home early simply because He couldn’t wait to laugh face to face with you forever in His presence. Thank you for the memories, for the pumpkin cookies, for frisbee nights, and for wholehearted hugs. You are my forever mama and best friend. I’m looking forward to an eternity of growing relationship with you and Jesus and of course…lots of laughs.
I love you.
Katie
Dear Mom,
I hate it that we cannot be a part of each other's lives. I pray every day for a forgiveness miracle, healing, & restoration between us. I wish you could see your three precious grandbabies grow – you would really enjoy them. They are such a delight – maybe one day…..until then, I will trust that the Lord has a bigger plan on this side of Heaven that I cannot understand or grasp – but I trust Him with all my aching heart. I love you. You did a lot of things right, and for that I thank you.
Dear Mom (Kathleen),
This past Friday, May 8th, was the 13 year since you went to live with Jesus, but I miss you like the day you left this earth. I spent the week with your two sisters, June and Joyce, and had the best time! We laughed and laughed and somehow I think that you laughed with us.
You would love to see how your grandchildren have grown into wonderful independent young adults. You would be crazy about your two great-grandchildren and proceed to spoil them to death!
I love you so much and miss your companionship. One of these days we will see each other again and catch up!
I love you, Mom. You were the best example of a loving Christian woman and you taught me how to be a good mom.
Your daughter, Cheri
Dear Mom,
Thank you for loving Jesus so much when I was a young girl.
You are such a brilliant scholar today; driven, successful, and revered in your sphere. I know my growing faith embarrasses you. You may privately hope it’s short-lived. Well Momma, I’m forever changed. Forever His.
My prayer is that you will return to your first love before it’s too late.
Love forever,
S
Dear Mom: Yesterday, when I was at an awesome women’s retreat I was given the opportunity to write a love letter to my Bridegroom, Jesus. I found myself thanking Him for you, because through all the heartache I felt through our relationship, God used you more than any other human being, to bring me to Him. He knew that’s what it would take for me to come. And through all the painful healing processes involved, my woundedness has kept me coming back to Him rather than straying too far. And I’ve developed a real heart of tenderness and compassion for others who suffer emotionally. Mom, I am so glad that all your suffering is over. Now you are healed and truly beautiful, and somehow, by God’s grace we will have awesome fellowship together one day around His throne. I think you’d now be proud of the woman I’ve become. I am. I know Jesus is. So thank you Mom, I always knew you tried your very best, but just didn’t have what I wanted most within you. You do now. Happy Mother’s Day, and Mom, you’d be really proud of Matt too! Love, Karen
Dear Mom,
I love you, I have always loved you. Even though we have not always had words to say, even though we endured a 3 year silence because of stubborness and sinfulness. A year ago today the Lord allowed you show me the forgiveness i dont deserve – and you dont even know Him. I praise the Lord for healing our relationship, but i would give it up and endure the pain if it meant you would be heaven with me.
Dear Mom,
Today we realized that joy and sorrow can be friends. We all missed Dad on this first Mother’s Day without him. And Memorial Day weekend, your 60th anniversary, will bring buckets of tears along with hoots of laughter.
Thank you for committing your life to being the best wife and mother you could be. I am so blessed by your example, especially where you didn’t have one after you lost your Mom when you were 12.
I love you, Mom…
Terri
I had four mothers as a child…a birth mother, an adoptive mom who didn’t keep me, a second adoptive mom, then a foster mom. Not one of them loved me. God is currently trying to convince me that I’m not unloveable, but the road is long. The blessing however is that I strive very hard to be a very different kind of mother to the wonderful son God has blessed me with. And thankfully, God has covered me the times I haven’t been successful– my son’s incredibly tender heart and generous nature is evidence of this.
Dear Beth and Melissa:
Thank you for my Mother’s Day present. Yes, you two, and you, especially, Melissa.
For Mother’s Day my present was my two boys sponsoring two boys through Compassion. My 5 and 9 yr old picked the most precious 5 yr old in Africa and a 9 yr old in India. We read the blog, watched the videos and as I cried they picked children their age. Their prayers tonight were the sweetest. My 5 year asked God to help him build a store when he is big with 2 rows of clean water and ice and a row of toys!
I love you all for being such warriors and examples. I couldn’t have been more satisfied today!
Love,
Jodi
Plymouth, MN
PS – I sponsored a boy name Jesus in who had been waiting 6 mo – just couldn’t resist.
Dear Momma,
Happy Mother’s Day! You were the first picture of unconditional love I saw. You made my childhood so fun and I always felt certain of your love for me. You demonstrated faithful love in marriage and I still reap many blessings from that today. Now, with your life seeming to be close to the end, I am praying that I can be a vessel of God’s faithful and certain love towards you. I long to lift His name up together with you in this lifetime and in the one to come. I love you and pray for your healing. YMMD
Dear Mom,
I love very much and appreciate all you have done for me. Since I’ve become a believer, I’ve prayed that we could become closer. You’re very special woman I would love our relationship to more. I know He has a plan for us. I love you Mom.
Dear Mom,
Words cannot express how eternally grateful I am to have you! You’ve given me so much to be thankful for, much that was a sacrifice of your own self. I haven’t always been the easiest to deal with and know I didn’t always agree with you or your decisions, but now I know from the depths of my soul that everything you did, you did for my own good. I am humbled daily as I see and hear what goes on in the homes of the kids I teach and realize just how blessed I am to grow up with a mom who met my basic needs, loved me unconditionally, and cared about the choices I made and the kind of person I was. I love you bunches!
Happy Mother’s Day!!!
PS – Happy Mother’s Day Beth!
I think (for whatever that’s worth) that one huge test of maturity and being like Jesus is how we have impacted those CLOSEST to us—and that for you is Melissa and Amanda. Look what your beautiful God has redeemed through you! Deut 6:6 – you’ve passed on a beautiful heart wrapped around Him only. Your girls are passionate and wise and so full of faith! Happy Mother’s Day
Dear Mom,
Alzheimers has ended our relationship long long before I was ready to say good bye. I wish I could have an adult relationship with you. I wish I could see you playing with the grandchildren. You would spoil them rotten.
You were a great mom. I miss you more than I can ever say.
May God bless you and take you home to be with Him soon.
Dear Mom,
Thank you for taking me to church as a child, where I first met Jesus. You did the best you could, I see that now, living with an alcoholic husband, being widowed when I was 10. You looked to me to meet all your needs, and I couldn’t. I looked to you to meet my needs, and you couldn’t. Only the Lord can meet all my needs. I wanted so much from you…but thanks be to God, that He is my Abba, and has redeemed the past, brought healing and wholeness to my brokenness. bless you….Pam in San Diego
P.S. thank you Beth, for this post. painful, but healing.
Dear Mommy,
Thank you for the years of caring and love you gave me, even when i didn’t recognize it. So many times after I became a Christian, I wished that we could share not only our lives, but our faith. I still wish that.
We have come on a long road to healing. Our relationship has healed in enormous ways. I praise God for that and give Him all the glory, because, in my own strength that would have never happened. I thank Him for the closer relationship we have now.
Oh mom, I wish you could see Jesus as He really is. I long to not only be your daughter, but your sister as well. I want you to know that the mistakes you made, and the things that may have been lacking, have been healed and more than made up for by God.
My greatest prayer is that you too woudl come to know the comfort in Jesus’ arms. Oh God, bring my mommy into a saving relationship with you, if she isn’t already, and help her to trust you with everything she is and has. She trembles at what the future may hold. She works so hard to try to keep things afloat for her and dad. And she is plagued by fears that she only hints at with me. Please relieve her fears and help her to release them all to you. Help her to feel your arms around her and your love for her.
Mom, I know you won’t read this, because you won’t come here. I pray that someday, God will give me the go ahead to write this to you directly.
I love you,
Heather
Beth; Thank you for being such an example and blessing to so many of us. Thank you for being so honest about where you have been at, and willing to share your story. Your story of God’s healing in your life and relationships helped me have the courage to start sharing parts of my story with my mom, and that opened up our relationship again. Thank you so much Siesta Momma… and may this day be a blessing to you too.
Love you!
Heather
I too am one of those girls who struggles for the words to say to my Mother, but it’s been very healing for me to read these comments and know that I’m not alone. I’ll be praying for all of us and our Moms, that one day we may have the type of relationship we’ve longed for.
Beth, from one of your thousands of spiritual daughters, Happy Mother’s Day with much love!
Veronica
Dear Mom,
I wish you loved me enough to spend time with me. I love you so much but you don't care about me very much & that makes my heart hurt a lot. I wish so much that you would choose me instead of working or spending time with dad. I wish you would have been there for me when I was growing up, because I needed a mom. I think you are wonderful & amazing & will never say anything bad about you. I think you did the best you could. But it just feels like there's any empty space inside where a Mom should be. I need someone to teach me how to be a lady and how to put on makeup.
I wanted someone to protect me.
But I will always love you no matter what because you are my Mom, even if you are never here for me, even if you never say I love you, even if you never are the mom I need you to be.
Happy Mothers Day
Dear Mom,
it’s been 10 years since leukemia took you. I’m sorry I wasn’t able to be there with you while you fought for 3 yrs. because my son who was 14 at the time was dx with cancer a yr and half later. You were so devastated upon hearing his dx, despite going through your own battle. What a time that was. You so understood how I needed to be with him that yr of chemo/hospital, the last yr of your life….I loved you so much mom. We’d had our “issues” but you knew I loved you very much and I’m so glad I got to be with you before you passed. You waited for me to get there and the last words you spoke were…”I love you too”….oh mom…I miss you but I know I will someday be praising the Lord with you. You believed and trusted Jesus as your Savior. See you on the other side Mom.
My sweet Mom,
I miss you so very much! Thank you for your unconditional love for me – I never doubted it. To me, it was Christ’s love in the form of a short little woman with knobby fingers, soft skin and the tenderest of hearts. I can’t wait to greet you in heaven! I’ll be the one with the same knobby fingers, soft skin and – I pray so much – with your same tender heart. Thank you Mom for persevering through such a difficult life – all for your two kids and your Savior. I love you!
Dear Mom,
I have been disappointed. I have wanted so much more than you were able to give. Please forgive me for being selfish and without mercy.
I pray that God renews your spirit on this day and that you would draw youself closer to Him. I want the very best for you and it is hard for me to see you so dissatisfied with life. If you would only give up and let God.
I love you
My best Mother’s Day gift was this posting on my daughter’s blog today:
Mom,
You’ve been the inspiration for my own love of mothering.
In each step of mothering, you’ve shown by example how to love, laugh, listen, and enjoy life.
You’ve been my cheerleader.
When I learned to walk you cheered me on, knowing it was one step toward you, yet one step toward growing up. You cheered me through the wonder years, making the small accomplishments seem grand. You cheered on through the teen years, even when I acted like I didn’t need those cheers. I did. You cheered for me as I became a woman, found the man of my dreams, and stepped out on my own. You continue to cheer for me as a mom. Your encouragement always seems to come at the perfect time.
Everybody needs a cheerleader. Thank you for always being mine.
You give love freely.
Not only have you lavished love on me my entire life, but you also opened your heart to my husband. Thank you for welcoming him as a son from the beginning. Then, as our family has grown, you’ve showered your love on the little loves of my life. Never withholding. Never playing favorites.
You make life so fun.
Every ride in the car is a joy ride. Every trip to the beach, a fond memory. Life is not dull. It is lived to the fullest. You wrap it up in spontaneity and top it with lots of laughs. Every walk in the mountains is an adventure. You are my favorite traveling buddy, pounce player, shopping girl.
You listen.
You listened when I would whisper childhood secrets. You listened when I cried my heart out over teenage woes. You continue to listen when I just need to be heard. You listen to all of my silly mothering stories. You listen and you laugh. You listen and sometimes cry with me. Most importantly, you listen.
Today I celebrate all that you are to me. My mom.
I love you dearly. I do not take for granted how blessed I am to have you as my mom.
YOU ARE A GIFT!
How could I ask for more? Thank you, God for this precious daughter!
I truly have forgiven you, but I do not trust you. I have gone through my entire life feeling as though I did not have a mom… God has healed my heart in many ways, but you are not a safe person to entrust my heart to- you have proved that over and over – nor do I trust with you my children or husband. You continue to hurt, deceive, and manipulate – yet you are oblivious to it all… I really do pray for you every day, and I ask God to open your eyes and heart to truth.
Mother’s Day is so bitter sweet. So, so sweet because of the grace God has lavished upon me as a mom… My mothering is one of the greatest testimonies of God’s redeptive work in my life. I am FAR from perfect, but looking back to where I came from to where I’ve been I am a miracle. Bitter because I never had a mother-daughter bond, and I struggle on a very deep level when I am around my mother. I do not trust her and feel a heavy burden to pray for my family’s protection from her. It is a void that hurts and I really do wonder if it will ever completely go away.
Dear Mama,
I miss you so much. I often think about you and Daddy and what ya’ll are doing in heaven. Sometimes I just can’t wait to be there with you. Thank you for all of your love for so many years.
I love you.
With tears stinging my eyes..
Dear mom,
so much I wanted to share with you when we were together today. my heart aches to be able to just talk with you about so many things.
Jesus, how He loves us. YOU and me.
How I am so sorry for all those grey hairs ” more than the 3 boys put together ever gave you”..
How I love my girls like crazy and how they love Jesus too.
How at 43, I wish I could talk to you like I talk with my friends moms..How I wish you and dad would get that Bible out that you got for your wedding 5o yrs ago and read for yourself what God has for you, and we could share it all.
I love you so.
Lori
Dear Mom,
Before I say ANYTHING ELSE, I first need to apologize for my teen years! =) No, I wasn’t as much of a handful as either of my brothers, but I sure did give you a run for your money when it came to my attitude. Sorry about that. Hindsight and 5 kids later, is REALLY 20/20.
Seriously though, you set such an amazing example for me of what a loving, supportive, encouraging, strong, smart, beautiful mom is. Everyday, I fall short of the goal I set for myself, but that’s because I’m reaching for the sky: to be the mom you were and are. Thank you for setting the bar high and giving me something to shoot for.
And to think you chose us each. You picked us out. You ADOPTED US into your heart. You trully are amazing and I love you more than words can say. Have a wonderful Mother’s Day! (That’s me…rising up and calling you blessed!)
Dear Mom
There are not enough words to say how I feel. There are so many mixed emotions. You provided a home for me with every detail met; the clean home, awesome food, vacations and much more. I without a doubt I have so much respect for you. I cannot remember ever saying to you or anyone a harsh word, upset at times but with full respect. You taught me responsibility, how to manage a home, how to conduct myself as a lady and for these things I thank you. As the years have gone by and it is now 12 years since you have been gone, I have learned there are many things missing in my life and I did not realize it then but now I do. I cannot remember you ever telling me you love me or that you were proud of me, or telling me about God. I think I understand why your own mother never did that for you. Today as I write this mom, I love you and I forgive you and I am so sad that you did not have a mom who told those wonderful words of life to you.
P.S. Because I have allowed my past to hold me in bondage I too have had difficulty telling my 6 children that I love them and how proud I am of them. But by the grace of God I am learning and whittling away at the pain and heartache it has caused. And it is so sad because I have been God’s child since I was 16, 35 years later I am just now getting it. I too am a good mother, clean, cook, teach my children responsibility, how to treat others but just the love that God gives me it is hard to give it away. Maybe it is because I have not received and accepted God’s unconditional love. I know I am not worthy of it but that is why He sent His Son to pay a debt I could not pay. Today, I do not want to leave this world with regrets so I am making the best of loving my children with the help and hope of Jesus Christ.
Today I have one daughter who is choosing not to have anything to do with me. My heart aches and longs for healing and recovery of a broken relationship. Please pray for me.
Thanks Beth, Happy Mother’s Day, this letter has brought many tears some sad and some for healing. Love you dearly.
Alexia